Always lose...

Confused on what to do
When truly I want you but can’t hold you
Unless behind hidden doors to hide our passion inside of a bubble for only us to see.
Can’t ruin your words because it’s not me
But you who has his own way already
And wants to keep it for some more days
While I’m only the side line of your world but I’m okay with that.
I can’t keep myself in a prison of emotions
Unseen for you and then think of you as only my friend.
My prison seems to grow each time I have to let you know that I will always refuse to let you go.
And when I finally do,
You don’t want to say goodbye.
You’ll never be the one that I can run to if my head is ready to burst and my voice had gone hoarse from my anger in the school walls.
Only my speaker when the walls disappear and both walk up hills to enclose ourselves in another personal space for us.
I know you aren’t my Right when in all’s sights
But you can hold my hand when things fly by
And me with you look to the night sky
On the path of space as I kiss your face
And look to your eyes of love no longer denied.
I just can’t keep up with this game.
I’m always losing.